I’ve felt the Lord giving me more words in my heart than I can rightfully process at any given time. In the past, this has meant that I need to find make time to write it out. Process it more intentionally. Yet, these seasons seem to always be short lived, and maybe that’s okay. So while I’m here today, and maybe tomorrow, I leave the future of this blog in God’s hands. He can call me to it as He wills. I’ll do my best to stay obedient.
I don’t even know where to start. These last couple years since my last post have been incredible! Full of joy, heartbreak, weariness, confusion, clarity, and learning every day how to trust Him more and more.
I just finished a three-year Bible study. I wouldn’t even call it a Bible study as much as I would call it a discipleship course. Every single Christian should have this course in their life. So many of us have our “come to Jesus” moment, acknowledge Him on Sundays, and run our own race in our own strength for the other 167 hours of the week.
I did that for 35 years. It’s exhausting. Unfulfilling.
Never have I ever felt more purposeful, valued, seen, heard, or loved than I have in the last three years with this group of women.
At our graduation, we received a prophetic word from a few ladies. I’ve never experienced this before. And out of my ignorance came a sliver of skepticism, but I said, “God, you’ll let me know if it’s bogus.”
In fact, He let me know He truly knows me. He hears me. He remembers the smallest of details I’ve said to myself. Things that nobody else would know or remember. No doubt these ladies were hearing from the Lord. What a gift He has bestowed on them!! And such an encouragement to my faith to see and hear it happen.
I left our graduation retreat with a new focus and new wind under my sails. A strength I didn’t have before. A confidence that if He is calling me to it, He will bring me through it and supply every need I may have and give every grace for that which I fall short of.
The distractions are quieter in my ear and mind. I understand why Jesus told the disciples to “shake the dust off their feet” when they encountered resistance or unbelief in Matthew 10:14. The more we make time to commune with the Father–seek Him, talk to Him, listen for Him, petition Him–the more focused we are on His will and His call for us.
Ever been deep in a good book? Totally unaware of the little voices and chatter going on around you. Until finally, “MOM!” penetrates your consciousness. This is how I feel after 3 years with this group and 4 days of fellowshipping, worshipping, and spending time in His presence. I don’t want anything that’s not of God to break my concentration on what truly matters.
We were told to “war with our prophecy.” To take the words the Lord has given us as FACT. PROMISED. And to walk as if it has already been fulfilled so when the enemy tries to steal our faith or lead us to doubt, we can stand against him and declare the Lord’s word WILL come to pass and not even the demons of Hell and all their minions can take that promise!
So I don’t want to call the revival of this blog a comeback; for I don’t know the plans of the Lord. But I do have a lot to say and a lot to process. I also have a lot of chores…
As long as He keeps making the time and His conviction continues to rest on me about this, I will be here.
Perhaps you will join me when you can.
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